The tie breaker is coming!!

Hey Baby.

So I haven't written a post in over two year. TWO YEARS. Crazy. I was wanting to come back and write a few things. A few things that I hope we can come back and reread together one day.

I have wanted you for a long time. When your big brother went into kindergarten, I literally was hurting for another one. Your dad was not on board for a while. Then one night Lyell randomly showed me a video of Ellie as itty bitty toddler and he melted all over again. It was a good thing he did because I was already pregnant with you and I found out I was pregnant late that night!! However, your dad was already asleep and I laid there reeling in excitement and thought. The next morning Dad-man was off to a big court hearing so I didn’t say anything and each moment we were together was as busy as the next. It felt like an eternity before we were alone and I could tell Lyell about you. He was so excited about you. 

I got pregnant with you in January, find out in February and then Covid-19 happened. The whole country shut down and the world as we knew it had changed. I was so scared the first few weeks because we knew nothing. Doctors and OBGYNs were scrambling trying to see what this did to pregnant people and the unborn. Nashville shut down and work and schools closed. I was afraid to leave the house when pregnant people became a part of the high risk category of coronavirus. I hadn’t told anyone so we finally told my parents because I was afraid to meet with people when I did have to go in and work. I stayed to myself and refused to go upstairs at work through the whole pregnancy. I was alone at every single one of my appointments. I broke down once when I wanted Lyell there with me at my High risk doctor but they were the strictest of all. 2020 is been a real shit year, but I am so glad you baby boy have been the silver lining for me and our little family. 

Feeling OLD.

O. L. D. I still have no morning sickness but boy I feel so much different this time around. Being older has definitely been a little harder on my body.

I have had a lot wrong with me this time around. Just being a geriatric pregnancy couldn't have been it. One thing lead to another and that snow balled into going to the doctor every three days for the last 3 months of this pregnancy. You name it...this momma has had it. But alas, We have made it to the end and you will arrive any day now. 

I will do a quick questionnaire like I did with Ellie and Win:

How far along? 38 Weeks

Stretch marks? Yes. Not too bad but I can see them staring at me in the mirror.

Sleep: Pretty well this time around. I have had some pregnancy insomnia that I have dealt with on and off this pregnancy. I watched a lot of girly chick flicks in the middle of the night. I’ve rewatched Twilight a lot. 

Best moment: I have had so many ultrasounds I lost count. Some were fun like when I found out you were a boy. Some were sad because no one was allowed with me and I was all alone.. But some where my favorite moments of the pregnancy. Momens where it was just the two of us and you were funny. The yawns, the wiggles, the hide and seek games you have played. I am almost positive you are going to be a major jokester. 

Anything making you queasy or sick: nothing not to brag but I just don’t have morning sickness at all 

Name: No name yet but we have narrowed it down. Everyone wants us to use an E name and I just feel like it is forced. We have a few names and we are just waiting on seeing this little guy in person. 

Gender: Boy

Belly Button in or out? in

Wedding rings on or off? off 

Miss Anything? Sigar and carbs!! Ha!! I just keep talking about all the crap food I am going to eat when I get rid of this diabetes. 

Movement: oh yes he is  active as ever!! My busiest baby yet. At night I lay there with Lyell and just feel him moving. This past few weeks I’ve really tried to remember the feeling. It’s something I never want to forget. 

Food cravings: Every things I can’t have....but boiled eggs and keto sausage balls are breakfast, salad for lunch and a small dinner at night. I literally cry sometimes because I’m so hungry and don’t feel full with what I can eat. My splurge and peanut butter on a apple. So yummy. 

Labor Signs: Nope. I am dilated to a two though!! I was so excited that my OB even laughed. 


Happy or Moody most of the time: I am genuinely happy but I’ve totally been Moody! Its been a ruff go personally and I feel like I’ve had everything go wrong but the end is near. 

Looking forward to: The kids meeting the baby. Just all of us being together.